Am I not writing crap...

To put it in a simple way, we all know that life is totally uncertain. But still we tend to, rather try to, live in certain ways. Or we expect certain things to happen in certain ways. The reality is sometimes they do and most of the times they do not. And we get disappointed, dejected, and sometimes we even completely broke. But isn't there a cure for it? That's what I was trying to find out and started reading many books. Finally I realized something that made my life so wonderful and enjoyable. Now I am totally happy, relaxed and always peaceful whether things are happening as expected or not.

Still I get into anger, sad, dull, laziness,... all sorts of problem. But none of them can disturb my internal relaxedness... which is entirely different from what I was earlier.

More to write...

My First post...

Starting my first ever blog post today...

I am going to just throw my thoughts on this blog. I have been thinking about "life" for a long time now. I have been reading a few books (mostly tamil books) realted to internal/mind science(sorry! I do not give much importance to scientific terms). I spent a lot of time understanding the concepts and practicing them. Just the time went by. I have failed big time. I started wondering why the concepts about oneself is tough to understand and practice...

Then I started explaining to others whatever I have understood(actually, I did not). I did whatever I thought of, discussions, analysis, .... thinking that they might help me to get those concepts. But I was so dump! I could not answer the questions that have been analytically asked...

Then I stopped everything except reading. I read... read.... kept on reading....

I do not know when it has happened. Suddenly I started realizing them... And I could feel them... I could easily sense that my life has started taking a whole new perspective... After that moment, the new "Me", has become the happiest person of any other "Me"'s of all my life.

I realized that no amount of discussions or analysis will help one to understand any of them.... I realized that internal science is nothing to do with the knowledge part of my brain.... (biologists, forgive me!!! I am poor at getting scientific terms...) It was totally about the feelings part of the brain... that's why no amount of logical / analytical thinking helped me to realize oneself.

I will write about the realization I had in forth coming posts....